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My Partner Is Cheating On Me – I Feel Like Dying Inside
- Mark Colclough
Af Mark Colclough, Parterapeut og psykoterapeut, cand. mag.
I was recently asked an interesting question. What is worse… your partner cheating? Or your partner dying? They seem to be quite unordinary comparisons, right? However, I found it to be a fair question and one worthy of attention. After some thought and discussion, what became clear to me was that there is tremendous overlap between both tragedies. This might explain why you feel like you’re dying inside when you discover infidelity or even wish your partner were dead. Reactions like these are completely understandable and certainly worth some exploration.
Why Does Cheating Hurt So Much?
A survey has shown that 1 in 5 people admit to having affairs.
I was recently asked an interesting question. What is worse… your partner cheating? Or your partner dying?
Mark Colclough, MA
And those are just the ones prepared to admit it! No matter which population gets surveyed, you are likely to find a large portion of infidelity. It is common. We all know someone who has experienced it, or we may have experienced it ourselves. So, why are we SO bothered by something that is so prevalent? Here is my view…
Grunden til, at det gør så ondt, er, fordi det er den ultimative forræderi. Sex, intimitet og det at danne familier er utroligt specielle, hellige oplevelser, og når din partner udforsker dette et andet sted, mens du er vidne til det, kan smerten være uudholdelig. Vi fyldes pludselig med selvtvivl og har hundredevis af mørke spørgsmål:
- Kender jeg virkelig denne person?
- Hvordan ser de på mig?
- Elsker de hende/him mere end mig?
- Hvad er der galt med mig?
- Hvordan kunne dette ske?
And it can work both ways. As quick as we can be to villainise, the person cheating can also be in pain. Perhaps they have had a nervous breakdown and are acting out to soothe other problems. Perhaps they feel immense guilt for their momentary slip-up and will self punish for years. Perhaps an event has led them to seek affection elsewhere. As an experienced therapist, trust me when I say – when it comes to infidelity, there are no winners. So, what does this have to do with death and dying? Well, as I explained already, there is much overlap – which we will look at now.
Why Does Death Hurt So Much
Emnet om, hvorfor døden gør så ondt, har været diskuteret af lærde i århundreder. Døden sker for os alle, og vi ved dette hele vores liv. Så hvorfor bekymrer vi os? Fra et religiøst perspektiv mener nogle, at vi sørger over døden, fordi vi blev skabt til at være udødelige, og at menneskets fald forklarer den forfærdelige byrde, vi føler, når nogen dør.
Death Is The Ultimate Challenge
Some scientists put it all down to our brain chemistry – the more we associate someone with comfort, happiness and ‘happy hormones’, the more we ‘withdraw’ when they are no longer here, causing all manner of physical and psychological symptoms. Evolutionary perspectives can explain death as something we need to actively avoid to survive, and therefore we link extreme feelings to its presence.
Hvad end grunden er, så er døden den ultimative udfordring. Så hvorfor føles utroskab også så forfærdeligt? Og hvordan er de ens?
Tabet af en partner markerer slutningen på forholdet og begyndelsen på et nyt liv.
Mark Colclough, MA
Is Cheating Worse Than Death
As I said before, death and infidelity have much overlap. They are both terrible, unfair and difficult circumstances for the ‘left behind’ partner to handle. Both induce grief and longing – grief for the person who dies, or grief for the relationship that is harmed by the infidelity. And longing for what was once a happy, harmonious partnership.
Both experiences also mark the end of something. The death of a partner marks the end of the relationship and the beginning of new life. In infidelity, if you are one of the 45% of people who try to stay together after the affair, you mark the end of the relationship as you knew it, and have to form a new way of being with one another. Or, if your relationship ends there and then, you are suddenly thrown into a whole new way of life without the presence of your partner – which can feel like a death of sorts. If you are in the terrible situation of having to watch your partner move on with someone else – such as the person they had the affair with – it can be excruciating – far, far worse than if they had died of a faultless illness and left you with only fond memories.
